Thank you Joel Faviere. <3
I remember one night, my mother and I got in a fight. Wasn’t the first time, sure wasn’t the last. This fight last six long hurtful hours. Everything was said from “It’s your guilt that makes you cry everynight.” to “Maybe if you dressed different and acted like everyone else, you wouldn’t be so alone all the time.” That night in my room, I convinced myself that I wasn’t good enough. That I wouldn’t be able to ever live up to anyone’s standards and that I would always ruin everything, that I already had. I couldn’t take it anymore. I was falling apart piece by broken piece. My whole life was falling out from under me. My family was no longer talking to each other, my friends slowly starting turning against one another, I had no one to turn too. The way I saw it, I had two options. One- run away and hope I won’t get caught. Two- commit suicide. Yes. I’m aware that should never be the answer, but I was pushed to my limit and I could not take anything anymore. I got on Twitter, Tumblr, and Facebook to check any last minute things and delete them. As I was going through my Twitter timeline, I came across Joel Faviere’s Self-Harm Awareness song “If You Knew.” I figured I’d listen to it. After the first 30 seconds, tears where running down my face like a waterfall. It was the one thing I needed that gave me hope. That proved to me I’m not alone and that ending my life or hurting myself wasn’t the answer. I listened to that one song all night, all week, and I’m not exaggerating when I say he literally saved my life. For that I am and forever will be thankful. Without that, I can honestly say I would not be here right now. Joel, you have given me the confidence I thought I could never have. You have made me feel like I’m part of something, that I’m not alone and that I am loved. I know I’m not the only one who’s life you have changed.
I’m just thanking you for everything. For the songs you write to the videos you do saying how much you love us to your inspirational tweets that make me smile and feel like everyday can be a good one and feel thankful for being alive. Thank you and I love you. You have saved my life, and I will forever be greatful. <3 ~Love, Cheyenne.<3
